Saturday, November 7, 2009
I'm in a pretty deep state of apathy recently, and it seems to be a trend.
What a strange time, then, for my sexual chakras to be opening.
This is what happened. I had a really intense bout of menstrual cramps on Friday. So intense I could barely function.
Then Friday night and most of the weekend, I did a bunch of intense EFT. Sadness is stored in the lungs, and I was releasing huge amounts of it, which included crying, coughing, and gasping for air. This is not unusual with EFT, and nothing to be alarmed about. Almost everyone walking around in your everyday life has these emotions suppressed deep in their body. When we get them out, there is a huge release of emotion and energy, and then things shift.
Well, things did shift. I can feel major energy shifts in my body, and I felt several over the weekend.
Then suddenly on Sunday something new happened. I started feeling swirling energy in my pelvis. This did not come from any sexual encounter or sexual healing, and my EFT had not been focused on sexuality. But something opened up down there, and I've been feeling the swirling energy ever since.
For those who are familiar with the chakras, you may have heard of Kundalini energy, which is likened to a serpent that has the potential to uncoil. Well, it kinda feels like that, like an uncoiling that is rising from my pelvis up to my other chakras. This is what Wikipedia has to say:
Kundalini (kuṇḍalinī कुण्डलिनी) Sanskrit, literally "coiled". In Indian yoga, a "corporeal energy" - an unconscious, instinctive or libidinal force or Shakti, envisioned either as a goddess or else as a sleeping serpent coiled at the base of the spine, hence a number of English renderings of the term such as 'serpent power'.
Yoga and Tantra propose that this energy can be "awakened" by Guru, but body and spirit must be prepared by yogic austerities such as pranayama, or breath control, physical exercises, visualization, and chanting. It rises from muladhara chakra up a subtle channel at the base of the spine (called Sushumna), and from there to top of the head merging with the sahasrara, or crown chakra. The awakening is not a physical occurrence. It consists exclusively of development in consciousness. With awakening of the Kundalini our consciousness expands and we become more aware of the truth. When Kundalini Shakti is conceived as a goddess, then, when it rises to the head, it unites itself with the Supreme Being (Lord Shiva). Then aspirant becomes engrossed in deep meditation and infinite bliss. The arousing of kundalini is said to be the one and only way of attaining Divine Wisdom. Self-Realization is said to be equivalent to Divine Wisdom or Gnosis or what amounts to the same thing: Self-Knowledge. The awakening of the Kundalini shows itself as "awakening of inner knowledge" and brings with itself pure joy, pure knowledge and pure love.
However, like every form of energy one must also learn to understand spiritual energy. In order to be able to integrate this spiritual energy, careful purification and strengthening of the body and nervous system are required beforehand. By trying to force results, considerable psychic disturbances and at times even permanent mental damage can occur. A spiritual master who walked this path before is required to guide the aspirant. Often will be found that negative experiences occurred only when acting without appropriate guidance or ignoring advice.
Kundalini can only be awakened through the grace of a Siddha-Guru who awakens the kundalini shakti of his discipline through shaktipat, or blessing. A Siddha Guru is a spiritual teacher, a master, whose identification with the supreme Self is uninterrupted.
The most famous of the Yoga Upanishads, the Yogatattva, mentions four kinds of yoga, one of which, laya-yoga, involves Kundalini.
It's odd that they say this can only be awakened through a guru, because unless you count long-distance connections, no guru other than me was involved in this "awakening."
Anyway, I have no idea what this means for my life. When my heart chakra opened a few years ago, that was a major shift, and I would imagine this one will be also.
For now, I just wanted to share the experience.