Lol, there has been this incredible clarity over the past 24 hours. Why didn't I see it before. It's so obvious.
I talked a few posts ago about "crossing the line." How to "be really whole, and all things will come to you" (sound like non-verbal seduction, btw?) ... we must integrate *all* of the perspectives and not be rigidly stuck in any one perspective.
Well ... of course. Duh. Why would a celibate girl be so attracted to the seduction community?
IT'S MY SHADOW.
So ... how do I integrate my Shadow.
I stop resisting it, and become it instead.
This means ... well, it's so obvious ... do I really need to explain it?
Erika must become a PUA.
This means ... a bangfest, with lots of casual sex that doesn't "mean anything."
The exact opposite of the rigid perspective I've been living inside of ...
A full on 180.
Maybe I also won't care about feelings either. Lol. I'll try being really "logical" for a change. Lol.
Oh, this is going to be fun. I actually did something similar to this in college, and was very successful with it. Ironically, I was not interested in a relationship, and everyone wanted to have a relationship with me.
Justin and I are heading up to Tahoe this morning for a couple of days at the cabin and (if there's snow) skiing. I *adore* skiing. I love the super steeps. I love to go really, really fast. It feels like flying :)