Friday, December 18, 2009
Integrating the Shadow: Erika's promiscuous phase begins ...
Waiting for J to arrive for our evening of tandem sarging, and ...
All right, well, enough talk of Shadow Selves and electric fences.
Sometimes if you want a change, you gotta shake things up.
If I'm going to integrate these unhelpful karmas and get past this crap, then I'm going to need to do what I did with every other area of my life that got cleaned up ...
Face the Dark Side head on ...
Thus, I am declaring celibacy over as of tonight.
Keep your double standards to yourself. If we're going to have polyamory, that means the women are going to be polyamorous, too (it's simple symmetry, Burning Man Guy, so please keep your "he's just going to be jerking off inside you" comments to yourself, lol -- perhaps you are projecting :-p).
Plus, after my request for tandem sarging partners, I received offers from four different guys who are all outstanding prospects.
So ... this means ... I'm setting an intention to have sex with five guys in the next month.
Phew, that feels edgy even saying out loud.
But sometimes to integrate the Shadow, we have to go to the opposite extreme for a while.
I also feel kinda excited. Between now and Vegas, these are some very hot guys :)
Mmmmm, this could be fun. Stay tuned ... ;)
Oh, and I need your support, dear blog readers. Do you realize how easy it's going to be for me to chicken out if I don't have your support? So please ... make yourselves useful ... help me conquer my fears ... :)